AA is the way!

Ahhhhhhhhhhhh.....hello, yes, we're back.  Uh-huh.  Hmmm.

Sugar is a wiley creature...have I said that before?  Its kinda like that psychotic person you dated who was sooooooo HOT and fantastically fun but bat shit crazy.  Ya feel me?  Over the past few years....since I last posted....sorry bout that....I've been on a journey.  I went in a few directions, one of which was checking out AA.  I went to support a friend initially and then found out it was useful to me and my sugar addiction.  Addiction is addiction any way you slice it, its just different poisons.

I could relate to every person in there and their struggles....there was Bob....whoops, anonymous....sorry Bob, I mean Ed.  Yes, his name was Ed....still anonymous...yes, so anyway.

Not wanting to leave the house because all you wanted to do was use.  Yep. Me.  Done that. Check!

Becoming obsessed about the next fix and when that will happen. Yep. Check and check!

Keep the high going so you use all day long cuz coming down sucks.  Oh yes.  Yes, indeed!

Sneaking it so no one will know....yep!  "Hey!  I'm gonna gooooooo walk the dog and I'm NOT gonna stop by the market on the corner and get some cookies and candy and shove them in my face and discard the wrappers and hopefully not have anything left in my teeth or hanging on my lip when I get back.  Yep, no, nooooo, that is NOT gonna happen.  Ok, I'll be back!"  Door slams, footsteps running down the street.......and then running back.....door opens..."Whoops!  Hahaha!  Forgot the dog!  I was only kidding pup! I wouldn't forget you!  Heehee!  Ok then..."  Door slams....footsteps running.....dog being dragged...

Getting so drunk that they've thrown up and passed out on the bathroom floor.  Check and check!

The weird thing was that AA for me was aversion therapy because they tell alcoholics to eat sweets instead.  Every single meeting there were pastries and donuts, cookies or cakes to celebrate birthdays.  It was hell for me and yet every person in that room had my back and watched me like a hawk and if I even looked at a donut I would get hockey checked.

Out of curiosity, my friend and I decided to check out OA-Overeaters Anonymous.  Wondering if maybe I should really be there instead but found out the hard way that that was a big noooooo.   Nothing wrong with the group but we just didn't gel with them!  They were lovely people but they were so introverted and quiet and there were maybe 6 people in the room.  A room thats energy was just so awkward and uncomfortable that I turned to my friend and said "AA has donuts, so if we are gonna come here again I'm gonna need a bar and a cocktail waitress"

Needless to say we barely made it through the rest of the meeting because we had the giggles and ran down the street like a pair of jr high school girls trying to get all the awkward out.

AA is the bomb.