Bad week for Mothers.

Weight: 151.4

Hips: 39 1/4

Waist: 30 1/2

Wow. I'm just so in shock at what has gone down this week for some mom's of my friends. Maybe thats why I was feeling crappy yesterday. All that energy was coming around. First, I found out that one of my neighbor's mom's had passed away. Its very sad because we all know our neighbors around here and we are like family. We actually have a name for "the family". We are known as the 16th Street Mafia. However the only activities we engage in are BBQ's, breakfast and time at the beach.

Then yesterday, I was talking to our head mafia leader, known as Mama Mafia, the matriarch of us and she told me that my other neighbors mother, who had been visiting last week, is in the hospital. I sent a text to my neighbor to find out what had happened and she finally called back last night to tell me that her mom barely avoided a full blown heart attack because she'd had a 90% blockage. They put in a stint and she was doing much better.

Finally, the one that really got to me yesterday was finding out that a friends mother was diagnosed with ovarian cancer last week. They went in to do surgery this week and found it to be inoperable because there were tumors everywhere. She decided to go on hospice and just spend time with her family and friends. My friend gave up his job working on Transformers 3 to be with her.

The part that is killing me is that I have only met his mom once, but she made a HUGE impression on me and I'm sad that the world will be without her. She actually married friends of ours about 5 years ago. In the ceremony, she said something that I think about all the time and if I ever get in a relationship I will be employing this wisdom. She said, "Before you speak to the one you love, ask yourself three questions. Is it true? Is it kind? Is it necessary?" I impart this knowledge on anyone who tells me about battles they are having with their mate because we have become a society that takes pride in the most ferocious of jabs against others and what we really need to do is be kinder to each other. This woman was a walking beacon of light with a kind gentle smile and a warmth that you just wanted to be near all the time. My heart is so heavy for her family, but I'm happy that they get to spend time with her.

So yesterday ended up being pretty rough for me. I didn't dive into the Ritz crackers, but I did 'check out' with about 3 handfuls of M&M's. I drove home feeling numb and detached. When I got there I ate a good dinner of ground beef and veggies and called it a night.

I'm glad this week is over and Sunday is my mom's birthday, so I'll call her and pray she doesn't have any bad news! I'm thinking not since she was out here in LA Sunday through Wednesday and I got to spend some time with her. Things are great in her world right now, so the odds of bad news is slim. Thank God!

Off to do cardio. Hoping this weekend will be mellow despite the million things going on. And as you can see from above, I gained a pound and my belly runneths over even more. So much for the Biggest Loser!